Wishing I was secluded by a waterfall.

I am so ill, My mouth hurts like a bitch and i have work in less then an hour.
Last night was good, not because of the music or the venue but the people who took the time to speak to me regarding whether it would be right or wrong.
I got in one arguement last night due to him winding me up i blackmailed him and said i would tell his gf about him cheating on her, thing is i would be screwing my friend over just as much as i would 'him' and it would also cause hurt to the gf, i may be a cunt but really.. i am not that nasty.
The people there last night where a range, but the strange thing is it was always the same people who ask to take me home. It makes me feel dirty and worthless, just a pennyless piece of meat in which people think they can obtain the excuse 'drunk' the next day to explain there actions. I did not act upon any of the jestures just left to sleep this head cold off.
I will say one thing about last night.. i'm terrified for you, and simply want to hug you.