Alas sounds like ala AKA the god of some religion, yet I am of the uneducated I could be wrong.
It's not as though there is no compromise, Unfortuantly for me I am very stubborn and will loose and arguement if tried hard not to. My head is all over the place that over these past few months I have let slip. To for granted my single status and offered. I have done some things which I am not proud of and others which have been taken for the team.

I am really enjoying my life now, and I don't want to go back to how we were, I tolerate you as a 'friend' now. That's a lie.. Tolerate not at all I have so much care towards you as a friend it's unreal we can hang as friend's imagine I'm the boy you get pissed with OK.
Sleep tight.