it was nice to have gone out as a family today, and not just the passing by conversation i think this is what i needed most i value my family more then anything in the world my friends are closly followed.

Your never going to change me, you us we'l always be the same ' lyrics ED - we are.
i have a lovely weekend and i take alot of my friends for granted but i have gained alot over the week and i love it fuck the enemies and the people who have no interest in anything else but themselves i love the game of life im playing right now its a field of emotions and thats the exciting thing.
i still love my old friends like my blood but solmetimes things have to change..
i lost a a very good friend of mine june 2008 so its coming up to 2 years rip this made me realise that you should value everyone for aslong as you can never wish anything upon an enemy that you wouldnt to someone you love, as even though you may like an individual they'll always be people behind them who care, and they may not have done anything.. just take into consideration other peoples feeling.
auuu revoir.
x

he said she said bla bla.
i'm begining to get slightly pissed at it all.
why can't people keep to their own business what i do is my own so only i and whoever i want to include is up to me but untill then i would prefer not to be getting people mailing me saying shit, nudging into, shouting abuse, they say about me being younge yet their acting more childish then i am.
i wish i didn't like spending as much time as i do with you, otherwise these complications wouldn't be so hard they'd just be reffered to as falling hurdles, but now it just seems a chore, an expection waiting for something else to be made up it boring me now.
i can't/dont wanna get involved in petty shit.

well tbh i am not in the best of mooods but i have ed singing in my ear im going to go see my friends who i love alot there the most important people in my life and i couldnt live without them on. Heels make me feel alot better its an instant change of mood.
im not ignoring you i just can't be arsed to argue with anyone i wanna have a good night and dont wanna ruin your weekend with you friends you dont need me ringing you.
bring on tonight is all i can say.

p.s your a cunt.
p.p.s you have a fat head.
p.p.p.s you have the biggest nose ever.

i hate this weekend already.
just fuck offffffff
cambridge?

What i do isn't up to you and if the city never sleeps then that makes 2.
I'm looking forward to hearing these lyrics tonight whether or not similar to frank turner.
i have been considered moving down to cambridge to live with someone who was once a complete prick there is no denying this but i really dont like this small town, with little things to do, and little people to rely on.
i have work in 52 minutes and i feel like absolute shit, i just wanna sleep.
I've decided i really want to cut my hair short and have my bridge pierced but i can't as 'its not appropriate to work with eurgh'. i wanna wear glasses, i want nicer clothes i want s s sex and i want some loverrn.

Fuck im grumpy today.

wake up and text back.
you never did text back.

this is bad real bad michael jackson.
can you stop me from becoming what i think i will be as i DON'T want to i like how things are and i don't want to change it please just don't let me become the busuall thing.
thanks.
now night.

Basically im tired, really tired.
but strangely it hasn't had an impact on my mood.
maybe cause im seeing you tonight?

its bitter cold outside.
it took me an hour to get home and now i am once again blogging.
i'm sorry if you thought i was lying, and i should have told you the truth but i enjoy you alot atm and i didnt want things to change, whether it was the right thing to do or not who knows, but i know it was something i wanted to do, and that was too keep seeeing you.
i dont mean to be a nasty as im not a nasty person, i just tell you things sometimes so you can understand that your silly, and are worth ten times more then what the pain in the arse can offer.

you off to leeds on the weekend meaning im'a have to find someone else to entertain me, but im sure this will be 2 ways, as i know you'll find someone to entertain you.
no doubt you'll ring me, and il answer my phone.
i should really stop blogging about you.

Basically you make me smile.
thats all the blogging i feel i need to do.

READ THIS it makes me smile.

Your so funny, you make me laugh but you talk so much sense.
you are THE coolest person that i have ever met as you tell me to write this.
your secretly black + your good at sex.
i like how we are at the minute, as i know i can rely on your phone calls to cheer me up.
i enjoy your fake laugh even though i would love to experience your black girls laugh, you make funny noises and i love it.
you kissing my neck makes me happy, but the scratches on my back gave me a sense of relief did i do well?
i hope your a happy chappy:) as i know i am.
goodfly jacob.
x

i thought big writing was appropriate.

Its a horrible day outside, and as the rain keeps coming it seems almost predictable that its not going to stop anytime soon. The rain seems to come faster then you bargain for at least its the sharp tempest sort of rain that has an impact and not just the incessant drizzle.
Back to my daily routine this week, early mornings and late nights due to course work completion dates. Face book has a strong hold over me when it comes to concentration i almost always have face book up when doing anything which is slightly poor ( now its choosing not to work) I'm putting this lack of Internet connection down to the weather.
Bon Iver is one to cover my play list today, the title of his songs are odd, there not easily explained, but they exploit the mind to justify his reasoning.
my question to you today is how is it that peoples prospectives are so different from one another, and some being so far off realisation?
its a simple question I'm just struggling with an answer right now.

anyway i need to expand my play list, whilst attempting coursework, and demolishing this slice of lemon and cream cake.
auuuu revoir

i'm having a sleepless night.
i want to be in your bed again, with you keeping me warm.

i have the erge to blog all the time.
im broading my music choice + if im honest im enjoying it.
i was listening to tommy reilly ( unsigned act ) in bed earlier covering an all time favourite song - mr brightside and now i feel the neccsesity to listen to it, not only because its a good cover but this song brings back some memorys i wouldn't trade for the world, even though these memorys wouldnt be possible now because certain individuals aren't around but then again it only takes a small amount of effort to regain the purposes of listening to music.
i'm genrally sitting here listening to melodys and the sound of rain drops hitting my window pain. i have a spiral of emotions right now due to how different people have made me feel, although feelings aren't meant to be logical, but for someone who rationalized their emotions are dangerous.

music is the shorthand to emotion. Its not always subject to reason, but there always subject to reaction.

I disparage you right now.
I wasn't aware i could have so much ability to carry such strong capacity of hate for you.
You make me hate you more.
Your a judgemental person, who has no right to be. Especially to people you DON'T know.
You put my mood down a notch or two and i can't hate you anymore for that. Just cause your perfect little life wasnt going so dandy you think you can take it out on the people you shouldn't but then again i suppose were use to it. The negativity you give off when something isn't going your way is horrific you own husband also thinks this. One day i hope you read this and see your a cunt.

above all last night was a good night, i couldn't help but carry the worry of what the 'bitch' was going to say the next morning, but doing something i had planned for a while, gave me a sense of naughtiness. I'm scared of a few weeks time so please excuse me if im not all that talkative its just a personal worry and im sure 'you'll' understand soon enough.
have a lovely sunday afternoon guys.

The bird the bee and then there's florence.

I feel like i have so much to write about today, different topics with different substances to be summed up into a specific descriptive piece of writing. Depending on my mind it will effect what playlist i will have on my itunes, today its just florence florence florence with a slight bit of paramore but florence is my hero. She is such a free spirit and if you listen to her lyrics then her warm personality will be defined. The sun is shining which makes me feel more positive febuary has been a dull busy month, but towards the end it has been full of events, and if the weather stay's like this then i wont be complaining. If i also find new people, and gain back the old friends i lost then this year will be a gooden. There was talk of the unseeen eyes of another world on the news, and i think people are overating problems which may not even be there causing more problems for themselves. If they want to be revealed they will find there own way to be seen, and this goes for all states of confusion in a situation just think does this really need to placed before us.

i took the stars from your eyes and made a map - florence cosmic love lyrics.

Florence and the Machine is Florence Welch's vehicle for awesomeness. Don't be fooled by appearances - her cover of Candi Staton's "You Got The Love" has got honest-to-gawd soul in spades. Though some might argue this song never sounds as good as when Sienna Miller is mouthing "rape me" to an unsuspecting drug lord but , this cover comes pretty damn close.

is slightly fucked off by everything right now.
this is why i HATE other people interfering with something cause now i have no idea what to believe hello shit mood i want the truth not what you think i want to hear.
as for you you can fuck off out of my life, i have no care for anything you have to say and i really couldnt care whether your not around, and im speaking on the behalf of others too take a hike please? just fuck off everyone.

misguided

I'm going away for a while
But I'll be back, don't try to follow me
'Cause I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying to find my place
But it might not be here that I feel safe
We all learn to make mistake

And run
From them
With no direction
Run from them, from them
With no direction

I'm just one of those ghosts
Travelling endlessly
Don't need no road
In fact they follow you
And we just go in circles
Now I'm told that this life
And pain is just a simple comprimise
Ao we can get what we want out of it

Aomeone try to classify,
A broken heart and twisted minds
So I can find someone to rely on

So run
To them, to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not
Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Travelling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one role
We should not be the same
But I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles

possibly my all time favourite song as the meaning of the song its talking the truth and thats all we ever want i genrally hope the beauty of these songs carry on for a long while, and with there uk tour near an end, i can certainly gurantee there will be more x

and not your last.

Personal view was beautiful, you say my writing is good mine is just my opinions.
You spoke the honest truth and your inner self is beautiful more beautiful then misinterpretated opinion's. To have complete trust for someone you hardly know, or who some what would say is still a stranger is rare, but i have complete trust in you. We said from the start honesty is the best policy and i would never lie to someone who appreciates me so especially not you. THATS IT we've found the name, to hell with sid and camilla but jacob and jack out of the little cracker pack just about hit the nail on the head. I wouldn't of expected anything less from a small minded male showing off infront of your friends and please know i would never expect you to ever let your friends down 'bro's before hoe's right?' but as you have shown your far from small minded the little things you could do wrong doesn't bother me as i know that your a little golden nuggett and when you want something to count you go about it the right way.

i dont think anything you do for me will go unappreciated x

I haven't been on here in a while due to lack of laptop, but without the fake life, socialising with people who you may not even no or have never met is a way of seeing yourself through different eyes as to what you are with the benefits of technology.

There comes a point where sometimes you just need to start again in order to fly, some what once arragent person told me that you can never have so much trouble at the age of 16 in which makes you feel so worthless. whether you hate your outer self, you have the innerself to rely on as you only let people you want know the real you. The possibilites are endless in ways to change something you don't like, and its always the little things you have to push away which mean most to you, but surely spirraling into bigger things, if your letting them have a slight impact on the way you are feeling.

sometimes is only take one thing or one person to make you feel like your ontop of the world, but then it takes only one thing or one person to show you your not, life is full of oppotunitys dont pass them by.

apresto my fellow chaps.