call me.

I have never felt more alone. I miss you so much. My ability to get on with things is becoming more and more harder. Why does everything seem to relate back to you, that in itself makes it harder for me to accept. Looking back through posts letters and picture it hurts. I really want to hear your voice like that surprise call you did for me on halloween. I want you to feel hurt the way you did last year the way you felt it was all your fault and how you gradually started to realise you wanted me. Want me again please.

http://sid-tuzemen.tumblr.com/

you, I

You go back to something you feel is the easy way out.
You can't be cruel but you have got to be cruel to be kind.
You come back to me, cause you knew I would accept you back into my life.
You now have some issue with me you have gone back to others.

This i feel some what annoyed about.

Random night.

Me & sam have decided there is always that one person you feel closet to.
This i feel is you. between the ages of 15, 16, 17 and 18, Is when you realise you need to start growing up. You played a part in me finding out who I may be and benefited me for the next age growing year. It's not because of lust, though it would have seemed at the time. It's the friendship that grew beautiful. The times we would discuss things that no one else knew and the times that I put up with your lame humour haha.
You haven't rung in 2 days, I must have upset you.
call me sometime.

Passion pit

Alas sounds like ala AKA the god of some religion, yet I am of the uneducated I could be wrong.
It's not as though there is no compromise, Unfortuantly for me I am very stubborn and will loose and arguement if tried hard not to. My head is all over the place that over these past few months I have let slip. To for granted my single status and offered. I have done some things which I am not proud of and others which have been taken for the team.

I am really enjoying my life now, and I don't want to go back to how we were, I tolerate you as a 'friend' now. That's a lie.. Tolerate not at all I have so much care towards you as a friend it's unreal we can hang as friend's imagine I'm the boy you get pissed with OK.
Sleep tight.

Am possibly in the best mood YAY!!

Two Door Cinema Club gig - jack sam brown we have to go ite.
need to go shopping for my sisters biffday ergh.
I'm being so illiterate today its rank.

Give youth the oppotunity to stay alive.

                                                          She takes the night bus home                                                   

america is where the heart is.

If the weather is poor, and It's meant to be summer it actually compresses depression. I am doing NOTHING with my life, because i'm sticking to my dream of america. I'm going to start saving to move out there. The hate that i carry for england is intense. The mood it gives it horrible. It's rare that i like many people at a time, so i could sit her and list only little people I would want to take to america with me. Unfortuantly my best friend isn't there. Just because I'm nice to someone I dislike doesn’t mean I'm a fake. It means I'm mature enough to tolerate my dislike towards them. I can gurantee that if i was to live in america I would believe in love because i wouldn't fear anything out there. It would be an entire new start with entirely different people. I would even consider love to be true. British are cunt'swanker'sarse's They don't actually make you feel anything.

Likes of England -
 The winter It's nice to sit there cosy on the sofa in the season of winter it's a family season.
 The history, The landmarks that we are being given our historic arcitecture. A mark of our growth if you like.
 We are ahead of the american's with our style.

Dislikes of England -
 The driving age, Even though i haven't started driving and i'm legal to.
 The drinking age, Its to younge and unreliable people are taking advantage of the age ban.
 The summer, It's never been a summer to remember due to rain.
 The people, There arrogance is unsociably annoying.
 The amount of jumped up skanks, living in slums due to drug addictions and begging for money.
 The sob stories given in magazines.
 The lack of sunshine.
 The lack of entertainment, britain doesn't have much to offer.

I could go on but i choose not to.

This i have every reason to believe is right http://hadtheworstdream.org/

if you love someone set them free, if you had to stalk them they probably wasn’t yours to love in the first place.

er.

So it would seem that me waking up last night due to doubt was correct, and this morning proved this.
You've got this image in your head that everything that was wanted last time, will be craved again 'INCORRECT'. Me speaking to you is me being there for you as a friend not because I want to jump straight back in bed with you. If I can't even be there as a friend that you 'so much value' then what can I be? I know one thing though.. There is only little people that would of listened to you telling whats going on, & you seem to think I take that for granted so i'l leave you to it.

watch listen tell.

constantly feel shit.
Look shit constantly.
Have nothing to offer to anyone.
give me money to go to america please? that's all i ask out of life.

'don't give me a fake answer, tell me something you want me to hear not what you think i want to hear to cure it'

I run to you.

Would genuinly appreciate it if you had a nice word to say about someone.. I daren't know what you say about me.. if you can't say nice words about better people.