Ever got to the stage where you feel everything is too much? you know to much but what you want to know, you know little of? it scares me.. not living up to my full expectation before my instrument is killed. having them days where everything from your childhood is bought back upon your memories on little childhood things you have mentioned to little people the people you thought would have stuck around knowing they shared the same unforgivable and regretable memories with yourself. Everything is insignificant, but it is very important that you do it because no body else will. Lik when someone comes into your life and half of you says your no where near ready and the other half says 'make her yours forever' i kind have wish you had said that to me.

Dad.
We haven't spoken for a while, yet it seem's i think about you and wonder what you are doing but then i also think about when you left me and my sister the way you seemed to put upon resentment towards us in where we fear that we would never forgive you. i forgive you and im sorry.