That dreaded song come on today which i have avoided listening to since 'it' happened.
It is the song that brings back horific memorys followed by horific news that left me in the emotion of sadness for day. my body disengaged, not wanting to function but the state of shock i was in, it was no surprise.
The horror was my friend jordan mark smith who died on the 2nd june 2008 i was on the train going to norwich when my friend asked me to go sit with him, for some reason i chose to be stubborn and sit on my own i sat chatting for the course of the journey when my phone went off.
The text message read ' jordie smith has died early this morning' i dropped the phone
and ran to the guy sitting half way down the train who previously asked me to sit with him and asked him is it true he just said and i sad in shock i couldnt speak.
i got back to beckys after norwich to check the internet and that just made it worse seeing everyone greeving i broke down and the song come on i felt at the time hurt and pain.
i never went to his funeral for being scared to let him go but i think the 500 people who did go made up for me no appearing RIP jordie its coming up to your 19th and we'll celebrate the whole night for your sleep tight.