bluurggh.

This is a sense of emotion in which i haven't felt for a long time.
nothing isbeneficial anymore and i don't like it, i'm ill i need to go to the doctors as i have 2 painful ears, and before you jump to the conclusion ' oh she thinks she has such a hard life' actually take the time to see that sometimes i get upset, and somethings have happened to me which will be extremely hard to forget about, i shouldn't have to explain why i feel crappy you should just take on board that im not my usuall self and should act upon that.
The strange this is were not even close anymore, so why do we both put the effort in? when its not benfiting us in anyway.. i've been thinking alot about moving away yet my confusion is a bundle of nerves and being sensitive to leaving certain individuals, it scares me to think that i might not remember you if i went.