arriving in the rush hour, i poped through to fast food to order a black coffee i sat waiting for the hands of the clock to tick to 4.45 as i watch the blue eyes attract me, i call a name in my head and no response, then the name is blocking my voice box, then there it is.. just like a jack in the box the name jumps out startling people even though you were expecting it. These eyes turned to me and then an arm is pushed over to my other shoulder we chat for minutes before a ringtone is sent from his phone into our ear drums bearing in mind mine still have gromits in them from 1997 and the other is perspirated.. He comments on the way i look and how my unique style singles me out from everyone, il take a comment as a negative comment if someone notices something that means they were thinking about you and then i ask myself thousands of question attempting to wonder what i was being thought.

i enter work table 4 isit? 'yes i.d card' 'thanks'.

steve ' hello lovely you alright? '

sid ' yes thankyou are you? a tad tired if im honest though'

steve 'arr isnt everyone only 4 hours to go.'

briefing 30 minutes, dialer tone calls start.. its a constant replay of the colour which lights up my mind, that bright blue ocean colour then a call comes in and its a faded memory just like it was a few months ago.

i'm now sitting here thinking do i text him or not? you'll always be a major part of my life due to you being my biggest secret yet smallest regret i wonder if you know that? i hope you do cause only the greatest fortune could concieve me to tell you as now i fear how you'd react.