happiness has gone.

i feel empty.
The experiencing of affective and emotional states, in which i can not define anymore. emotionally drained.
I feel sick when i talk, I'm scared to introduce new people into my life and i fear for my life. I often hurt when i judge, or regard upon. I am lower then i have ever previously been with little aversion to activity. Gesturing towards silence is the only thing i feel safe upon now. I wish i didn't belong in the present time, previous would suit me best. I'm shocked at how distinctively separated from early i am, and how modified i have become.
stop listening to sad music, it's bad and watch eastenders.